FEELING: Hot and Agitated
LISTENING TO: That tiny voice in the back of my head telling me to calm down
SUMMARY: Another wasted day due to trying to “get better” coupled with fuckery from the Kentucky Department of Unemployment Insurance
today started off like most of my days. i hear the alarm to take my medication. i get up and take it and go right back to bed. that’s because it’s 6 am and nothing good happens at 6 am. i had the added benefit of taking extra medication that was prescribed for me on Friday. since i have a doctor’s appointment scheduled for this Friday to check how the new medication affected my system, i thought it was in my best interest to take the medicine. well, let’s say it has been BAD TIMES all day due to that medicine! i have been walking very slowly and making sure i make no unnecessary movements so that i can keep the stabbing pains and urges to vomit to a minimum. the medicine is an antibiotic to help with what my doctor thinks is post nasal drip that’s not clearing up. well, it is having the opposite effect. image having a huge glob of mucus constantly show up out of no where with no where to go because it has blocked the airways. which in turn, brings the queasy feeling right back to center stage. you get the point. well, enough with that nastiness for now. in 1 1/2 hour i get to take my evening medication without getting over the AM medication effects. oh well! i guess this is the price of getting well.
now this is how you kick a man when he is down!
while sitting here and not feeling well, i was all up in my head. something told me to check my bank account to see if my direct deposit from Unemployment Insurance has been deposited. it is normally deposited on Thursday of the week the request is filed. there was no check on Thursday or Friday of last week. i chalked up to processing delay. Monday i was too busy trying catch things up that are due at the 1st of the month that it took my focus away. today was a different story. i was bedridden and had to do something constructive. 1st step, i went to the KY Dept. of Unempl. Ins. website to see if it showed that i requested a check. i was greeted with a message in big letters, “YOUR BENEFITS HAVE EXHAUSTED FOR YOUR CURRENT CLAIM. FILE A NEW CLAIM.” i looked over to the letter on the bed next to me that i received from the KY Dept. of Unempl. Ins. less than 30 days earlier that said i had over $22,000 on my claim and it had my weekly amount. so i looked back at website, i go out of the website, clear my cookies and history from my browser and tried it again. still, i was greeted with that message. you know i am good and confused at this point. i made sure to pull up a copy of the confirmation that i received when i requested my check. 2nd step, i immediately called the KY Dept. of Unempl. Ins.offices in Frankfort, which is our state capital. after being hung up on, calling back and being blind transferred to a department that “accidentally” hung up on me again, i was starting to get upset. remember, i couldn’t show out or talk crazy because of how bad the medicine had me feeling. i had to basically “smile talk” through clinched teeth. when i called back the third time, i calmly explained my situation and said that if they could not help me, please get me a supervisor to straighten this out. after a little research, i was told that there is a system glitch for people who had not exhausted their benefits on their original unemployment claim that go back to work and made enough money to qualify for a new claim. i was told that happens but not that often. WTF! how do i keep being the unlucky recipient of these rare situations?! i was told that a new claim had to be filed. i guess the website was accurate. which would process overnight that needed to be stopped tomorrow. this is due to the funds that i accumulated while working from Oct. of last year to May of this year would severely decrease my funds to an amount that’s more than 50% less than i am receiving now. after the new claim that i filed today [after locating tax paperwork and employer information, it is 30 minutes minimum to file a new claim] is stopped tomorrow and the claim that’s holding up my check is reinstated, i then have to drive my ass to the Unemployment Office tomorrow to get them to request manual checks for the past 2 weeks. right now, there is so much tension in the back of my neck. my airway is barely opened and i am still feeling ill.
right now, i can do nothing but imagine that i am holding myself extremely tight. the stress combined with the way i feel physically is trying to overwhelm me. i am going to find a spot on the floor in a pitch black room until this feeling passes.