the month of MAY “GET YOUR ASS OUT OF HERE!”


May was a very rough month for me. A lot of negativity was in my life. I hope with the starting of June, all of that changes.

I do not have much more to say on the subject of May. I am letting this posting be my last thoughts on the matter. As far as I am concerned, MAY you need to get your ass out of here!



Is the Devil secretly responsible for inventing Autostart?


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Is the Devil secretly responsible for inventing the Autostart? function on online music players?

I ask this question after setting up a playlist for myself to put on my website.
At first, I realized it is mildly annoying to go to different contact's websites and music blasts out at you expectantly.
I realized web music players were REALLY SUPER ANNOYING after putting one on my site and then having it blast as me each and every time I did an update to my site.
Now they are not bad at all if the Autostart feature is not activated, but when it is, it is annoying to have to search someone's page to find the player just to hit the pause button.
Is there a way to stop this before it goes off? On some sites, yes and on some no. It is like playing Russian Roulette with your ear drums.
If someone knows a way to get around this annoyance, please let me know. Thanks.

Another outfit idea for my last day at my job.


Decisions! Decisions!

Now this is some style for that ass! LOL

my outfit choice for my last day at work.


i have to make sure i were my adidas flip flops. that would really set this outfit off. LOL

Radio Shack Customer Receives Beating Asking for Manager


2009.04.30punch If you've ever worked in customer service, you know how infuriating it is to listen to an endless string of mundane complaints or fend off duplicitous customers looking to get something for free. Regardless, there's a line that customer service reps should never cross -- the line between angrily getting a supervisor and mercilessly pummeling the dissatisfied shopper.
According to WEAU, Radio Shack employee James Knol of Eau Claire, Wisconsin crossed that line last Sunday night (April 28). Knol not only refused to accept a return item from customer Leigh Carey, but he also started punching him so violently that a witness called '911.' Apparently, Knol went all 'Incredible Hulk' when Carey asked to see his manager.
Knol was charged with disorderly conduct and battery, but WEAU didn't release any details about Carey's condition or plans for litigation, although we won't be surprised to see a lawsuit in the very near future. [From: WEAU]
by Warren Riddle — May 3rd 2009 at 3:21PM

Radio Shack Customer Receives Beating After Asking for Manager

Jackson 28 May 2009 Chillin'


Jackson looking at me wondering, "Shouldn't you have your ass at work? You're cutting into my ME time. DAMN!!"

Jackson 28 May 2009 Wanting to blog




Hurry up and leave! I need to use the computer. I am in the mood to write a blog....

Today sucked from the word “GO”



i got up this morning and i still wasn’t back to full health. i am still dealing with withdrawals from stopping my medication. since i will not be at work, there is no need to spend a bunch of money on medications that are to help me manage ADHD and Bipolar. Jackson is used to dealing with me and both of them by now. as long as his food and water bowls are filled and he has a clear path to run between the living room, kitchen, bathroom and bedroom, it is ALL GOOD to him. it sucks to be dealing with a health issue at a time like this.

after getting up and feeling nauseous and wanting to go back to bed, i shaved and got ready for work. i was even going in early so i could work some overtime. Lord knows i could use the money. well, this was not to be. i go out to my car and the damn thing is completely dead. i tried to unlock the doors with the remote and nothing happened. i should have known something was wrong at that point. i got in the car and tried to start the car and not one sound was to be heard. i am thinking, “WOW! what a messed up day this is turning out to be!” now i had to search all around the car to find the warranty info just to get a jump start. i bought the car in 2006 and never had a need for the info. i now realize it is always good to have that info at your fingertips just for times like this. i look over at my passenger seat and had to laugh. there sat the majority of the contents from my desk at work. i packed that stuff up the first day that i got my layoff notice. now back into the house i go with that heavy ass box of crap, my book bag that i carry daily and the warranty paperwork in a pile in my hands. i could do nothing but plop down on the couch.

after making my way to the couch, i started to feel hungry and realized that the cupboards are bare for Jackson and me. i fed him the last of his food this morning. now i am here with no food for either us and no way to go get any. this is beginning to suck more and more. it is not that bad though. at least he was fed before i was headed off to work. i have to find a way to get him food for the morning. this would not be so bad if i was on a bus line that went anywhere besides EXPRESS to downtown. i am waaaaaaaaaay out in no man’s land and public transportation is really not your friend out here.

i am sitting here hungry, mentally exhausted, needing to call a roadside assistance company to give me a jump and irritated with Jackson because he will not sit his ass down. he is currently running through here playing “Turbo King” and is scratching me up in the process. i need to cut his nails and i guess this is his way of telling me to hurry up. he is running across my feet and ankles which is why i am being scratched up.

on top of this, i am missing another day at work. this is another day with no pay. it is going to be nonstop fun trying to rob Peter to pay Paul when next month’s bills come due. that will be GOOD TIMES!

there is so much more that i can say but i am starting to get a headache from the mental exhaustion. i have to take a nap. i will call the roadside assistance company when i wake up. hopefully it is just the battery and i can drive to AutoZone to get a new one. then i can go and get mr. man and myself some food.

wish me luck with the rest of this day. i most definitely need it. i am tired. well, take care one and all.



my damn brain hurts!!!!



i have been home from work since last Friday just vegetating. i am not trying to do anymore than i have to mentally. with the situation at work, my health, my father’s health, finances and etc., my mind wants to go into “fight or flight” mode. i am at my best at times like this. i love to solve problems. i am taking a step back from my life currently. i am waiting until the official layoff date of June 19,2009 to actually put my brain on PAUSE. at that time, i am taking the 1st week of my company initiated “vacation” to just relax and setup a routine. i want to make sure i do not rush myself into situations that may become overwhelming in the mean time.

this post is just a bullshit post to myself. i want to look back at this time and ask, “what was i doing when i had the 1st break in employment in 26 years since i started working?” the answers will be right here waiting on me when i decide to seek them.

i want to thank everyone who have dropped by and have shown me love. i really do appreciate the kind words and the words of wisdom. i happened to be connected to a community of very wise and intelligent people. that is lucky for me. i thank you my family.


are you afraid of your sexuality???



this is a question that i used to ask myself a long time ago. even though i have never been considered “flaming”, “queer” or whatever words ignorant people used to refer to people who love people of the same sex. i have always thought of myself as being “me”. i never went out of my way to prove that i liked guys or girls. i never had to. with me and people who knew me, it was always a known that was unknown. someone would overhear a personal phone call where i had become a little excited talking about a subject, i.e. trade, tossed salads, skumming (different blog all together) LOL, 1 night stand tricks, etc. you get the point, and put 2 and 2 together. we were not talking about football or basketball.

i have never tried to be more masculine than i am. i do find that i am more masculine that your average “down low” brother because i am not trying hard to hide something. my problem has always been to not hurt a female’s feelings that had an interest in me. i never started off friendships with females with the phrase, “Before you start trying something, I have to let you know I am bi, gay or try.” that would be ignorant, to say the least. i have had situations in the past where i was trying to be platonic to female friends and they wanted to go further. when i told them what time it was, i ended up receiving nonstop attitude and resentment. in no way, shape or form did i treat them any different than i treated anyone else. in addition, i did not feel it was a need to get into what i do behind closed doors with someone who i thought of as just a friend.

my reason for writing this is due to having a lot of female friends who are starting to read my blog. i was unconscientiously putting restrictions on myself such as not posting pictures of guys holding, touching or kissing each other. i am not talking about pictures that would get me banned but plain ole ordinary pictures where the guys may be in an embrace or whatever. i also was a little guarded about certain parts of my life that i chose to write about. i also felt guilty when a female friend would read something and her head exploded after she realized what she was reading. i have decided no more of that. i am going to write from the heart. i am no longer going to hide within myself. whatever a person reads will represent the true me without filters.

if this offends someone, that person needs to STAY THE HELL OFF of my page. i am not going to censor myself for anyone. as i tell others, no one has the right to judge you and you should just DO YOU. i am going to take those words and really make them mine.


Git Yo Shit! Git Yo Shit! and Git Out!



I have 18 more business days to go before I have to join the others who are unemployed. I received my 30 day notice last Wednesday and did not know if I was going to write about it. I decided to do it, after thinking, “Why not? It is not like it is a bad thing?” I am not being fired because of disciplinary reasons. I am being displaced due to a staffing reduction. I am not even mad about it. This is the 3rd time in 8 years where I have to go through this. I am still remembering the last blog I wrote on this very subject 2 years ago. This cycle becomes a little old and makes a person not trust their present employer. I currently work in the Health Care Industry and I feel it is time for a change. I have been ready to make a change for a long while. I am tired of having a job that is always decided by political whims and rhetoric. I can now take time to decide what I “really” want to do as far as a career goes. There is no such thing as “being too old” to change your career direction. Sometimes we have to look at these situations as disguised blessings.

It is not bad for me at all. I do have the benefit of being able to receive a severance package and drawing unemployment at the same time. Thank goodness for Kentucky being one of the few states that allows the unemployed the ability to do this. When I was given the news, my HR Department kept asking me if I was OK. I was becoming angry because I had to keep reaffirming that I wasn’t going to blow the spot up or something of the sort. I have coworkers avoiding me because they do not know what to say to me in a time like this. There were only a handful from my particular job site that are being affected by the layoff. Some are not taking it as well as I am. I am happy by this turn of events due to being able to take my career in a different direction, I will actually bring in more salary than I would if I was at work everyday and finally, I can work on my health without the stress of going to a place of employment everyday. Do not get me wrong, I would love to continue to work but only if it was at a place that valued me as a person and not a number. I bust my ass for my employer. There was even a situation recently where I was able to put a system into place that helped my employer greatly in properly administering a contract that was in trouble. I got, “Thank you for saving our asses! Now pack yo shit because we have no more use for you?” Oh Well! As the saying goes in Spanish (lo que será, será.) (What will be, will be.)

Final thought, “I am keeping my fingers crossed in the hopes they DO NOT change their minds.”


Loose Ends – Stay A Little While, Child


Mariah Carey My All-Stay Awhile So So Def Remix


I am trying organize my on-line clutter with…



I am proud of myself this morning. I have made some big steps in getting my on-line life organized. I had multiple blogging sites and social networking sites active at one time. This was all the while bitching about not having enough time to blog. I now only have,, and accounts. I had multiple sites opened so that I could decide on what was the best options for me as for staying in touch with friends and keeping my lines of communication opened with everyone. My reasoning for these choices are:

Wordpress: This will be my blogging spot. I wanted to use a site that is more geared towards blogging.

Multiply: This is where my friends are. I think I have a slight addiction to this site. LOL

Facebook: This site is awesome in terms of finding and keeping up with long lost friends, family and colleagues.

MySpace: I have friends here that will not give this site up if someone was to pay them to. Plus, this site is a great time waster.

These are the only sites that I need to enjoy myself on-line. I have links to my anime and manga sites and house music sites on my site.

Speaking of my site, you can visit me there at How easy is that to remember! If you know my name, you will always know how to reach me. I love the fact that I have an easy internet address for people to reach me at. Plus, there are links to my Multiply, Facebook and MySpace accounts there on also. There is no need to put the www in the address. I did this for convenience for my friends and myself. I love using Multiply and the other sites but it is a pain in the ass trying to tell people those long internet addresses. If a person cannot remember my new catch all address then they really do not want to keep in contact with me.

If you get a chance, can you stop by and give me some suggestions on how to improve it? I am still at the beginning. Unlike Multiply, Facebook and MySpace, I have to do everything from scratch. This includes setting up Photo pages, Video Pages, etc. None of these pages have templates. Tell me what you think along with the suggestions. Thank you and I hope to talk to you soon.


FINISH THE SENTENCES….Stolen from Ms 911 at, yet again! LOL


1. I've come to realize that my last kiss... was so long ago that I forget when it was.

2. I am listening to... Nu Life Feat. Kenny Bobien -My Joy on DI.FM Soulful House.

3. I talk… every chance my mouth opens.

4. I love.... very passionately.

5. My best friends... are always there for me.

6. My first real kiss.... was by practicing with a cousin. LOL

7. Love is.... sometimes elusive.

8. Marriage is... marked COMPLETED my to do list.

9. Somewhere, someone is thinking... damn! this is a lot of questions.

10. I'll always remember...july 4th because it is the day i got jackson.

11. The last time I really cried was because....a burger king commercial made me. seriously!

12. My cell nonexistent on the weekends.
13. When I wake up in the morning.... i hope i do not wake up long before the alarm clock.

14. Before I go to bed... i hope i actually get some sleep.

15. Right now I am thinking about... why i am i awake doing this at 2:56 am?

16. Babies are... great when they belong to someone else.

17. I get on Myspace.... when i need to cleanse my mind from Multiply or Facebook.

18. Today I... did absolutely nothing but ate and surfed the net.

19. Tomorrow I will be... a busy and productive day.

20. I really want to be...a supermodel in my next life time.

21. I am allergic to....stupidity.

22. I am annoyed by...falsely superior people.

23. One food I refuse to eat is....hominy. who in hell thought it was a good idea to swell up corn and eat it.

24. The most recent thing I've learned is...i am retarded for being up doing this and not in bed.

25. The number one thing on my bucket list find out what a "bucket list" is.

26. Something I've always wanted to learn to do is...go to sleep at a decent time on a nightly basis.

27. I have a high tolerance for...nothing.

28. I have a low tolerance for... bullshit.

29. I wish...i complete all of my chores on sunday.

30. The one person I would happily make a fool of myself jackson, even though he's not a person.

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I am making this avatar my 1 and only 1 that use on all of my sites. This pretty much sums up how I feel about most things on the internet!

LOL! @ this restaurant name


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Quick Note 15 May 2009



Today was a horrendous day overall. Early this morning I received a call from my doctor telling me that I have about 3 months to get my health back to an acceptable level. My health has been going downhill due to stress from trying to get approved for a flexible work schedule. Also, my health was affected by the titration of the medication that I take on a daily basis. This put a huge stress on my system which was proven as the result of a blood test that was taken on Wednesday.

It wasn’t even 20 minutes after the call from my doctor this morning that I received a call from my father’s girlfriend stating that my father is in the hospital to have surgery to have splints put into his heart. He had a heart attack last night. WOW! What a way to start a weekend! I hope it only gets better from here. I will see. I hope 1 and all enjoy your weekends.


My walk down memory lane. That's because technology is a mofo...


I was sitting here bored so I decided to take a trip to my old neighborhood in Jersey City. First, I would depart the PATH (Port Authority Trans Hudson) train at the JOURNAL SQUARE station in Jersey City. Next I would stop at BERGEN FRUIT MARKET to get either a V8 or Guava Nectar. I would drink one or the other everyday. I would stop into my job, Martin Paint Store, and check in on my employees to make sure they were not goofing off. Normally, I was there but miraculously a day off popped up for me maybe once every quarter. There is a furniture store now at the spot that WAS THE LOCATION OF THE MARTIN PAINT STORE. After I put everything back into order, I now headed off to what was to be MY LAST APARTMENT IN NEW JERSEY. I like the fact that the outside of the building was finally painted. I bitched about that the entire time I lived there. Now tell me this ain't some craziness! I have just walked you through me leaving the train station coming from Manhattan and walking home to my apartment in Jersey City, New Jersey. This is all while laying across my couch in Louisville, Kentucky. If I have not said it a billion times, TECHNOLOGY IS A MOFO...





You might be rich!



I just finished watching a story on about a homeless guy who had money in a bank account that he did not know about. He inherited $556,291.00 which sat in a bank while he lived homeless in a cold garage. WOW @ the irony.

I normally do not think twice about stories like this, with the exception of the thought, "That was a nice story".

Well, this story was also about billions of dollars of unclaimed money that other people do not know they have. I decided to go to the links that were supplied with the story and I was shocked at what I found out. I actually have unclaimed money out there. I have unclaimed money in Indiana, Missouri and New Jersey. See that's how I roll. I just leave money all over the place. JUST KIDDING! I know this is real because one of the missing funds is a state refund from the state of Missouri that was lost when I moved from Missouri to Indiana. Another is in regards to the estate of my great aunt and uncle that died. How was I to know they left me something? I checked my brothers and sisters names and they have money also.

I feel like an infomercial. I am attaching the links to the news article and for the lazy folks I am attaching the link to the video. I hope you have a happy hunting.

Link to the news story is

Link to the video is

Title text from the story is

You might be rich! Here's how to find out
Welcome to the wonderful little secret called unclaimed property: It could be an old paycheck, stock note, or inheritance that's owed to you. When no one claims these valuables, they're eventually turned over to a state- where they may languish for years.  On "Dateline," we showed how you may be able to find that forgotten treasure on your own.  Use the links here to search state databases.

BTW, all of the searches are free and legit.

I have decided to stay with I hope this doesn’t offend you….



I sat here pondering my likes and dislikes of I really do like this site for all of the friends I have made and the daily interactions that I receive. This is a great community to be a part of. There are many genuine people on this site. There is also the fact I get to change my display as often as I like. This keeps my ADHD and OCD in check. We all need a creative outlet. Right? I also like’s notification and posting options. I can post to my blog or other blogs without actually having to come into the site. It is a plus to be able to post right from my email box. I wish more sites were like that.

Even though I like those positives about the site, there ARE some negatives. Recently, there has been a rash of deletions of accounts on Why is this happening all of a sudden? How do they decide what accounts will stay and which ones will go? I have seen sites that basically have kiddie porn on them and they are still active. I have seen sites where the author only sends things out to “friends and family” and not to “online buddies” and their accounts are still deleted. This is a definite WTF! and scratching of the head moment. I wish someone could give me an accurate and honest explanation of this.

Another negative I find with is the need for this site to be a soapbox. I guess I would count this as a positive and a negative. It is a positive because there is much needed information that is shared with others. I have actually benefitted from some of the information that has been supplied. I feel this is also a negative. Instead of stopping with the disbursement of the information, some take it further with including incendiary comments that take away from the message of the post. I understand many of us are very passionate people and have a right to say what we want on “our own” pages but sometimes there are people who love to cause controversy at every opportunity possible. This is what makes the experience less rewarding. As I always think, “If you don’t like the show you can always change the channel.” I am going to change the channel.

Going forward, I plan on still communicating and communing here on The only difference is, I will not be commenting or acknowledging posts that have the subjects of race, politics, religion, sexual identity or sports. (Yes! Sports! We know how fanatical some people are.) I am not saying I am not going to read them. I am saying that I am not participating when the subject matter is of a sensitive nature. I also will not be commenting on posts that have comments of the same sensitive nature. I am taking this stance because I am a very passionate person and it becomes frustrating when I debate people who are reactionary as opposed to taking the time to actually gather facts on the subject they are debating. It is a waste of my time and theirs.

As I go from post to post, I know you will see my avatar in your Viewing History. This is why I am letting you know now why I did not leave a comment. This is whether I wanted to or not.

In conclusion, I really do mean it when I say, “I hope this doesn’t offend you….”.


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