Thu,Dec 30,04

i made it through another year at Anthem.  woo hoo! i am glad that's over with.  i will go back focused and with a new attitude.  nothing in life that's worth having is ever given easily.  that's the way i will look at work next year.  i have bullshitted enough and it's time to step up to the plate.  i love my job and it's a place that i want to be for a while.  it will be a lot easier when i focus. i am going to relax today and play this video game.  i will crash out after that.  i will do a little cleaning after that.  oh, i almost forgot.  i have to get my Mike's Hard Lemonade to get this party kicked off right.  i picked them up on my way home this AM.  well, i hope to write tomorrow. if not, HAPPY NEW YEAR or Feliz Nueve Ano!

Wed,Dec 29,04

i put loopy for the mood because they don't have (Tired). it was a long night at work. i got there late.  i did alright. i didn't make it to the gym. i am going to try tomorrow after i get off of work.  i went to white castle instead.  BAD ME! lol! anyway, i am glad that tonight is the last work day of this week. i am so looking forward to the break. i am a little irritated this morning. i couldn't get my car up the driveway. i am looking forward to the landlord to say something. i will bitch him out for saying anything. not 1 drop of salt has been poured on the driveway. oh well! there will be hell to pay if i am awakened with that bullshit. until then, goodnight. :)

Tue,Dec 28,04

This is a test on how to send an entry to my journal via IM.

Tue,Dec 28,04

i am so happy to be going to bed.  i was up all night.  i didn't go into work.  i wasn't feeling well.  it is the first time that i took Ambien and used the CPAP machine.  it was a big mistake.  i guess this wasn't taken into account when i was prescibed the Ambien.  i am feeling better today.  i went and got my new sleep mask.  i think that i am going to like this one a whole lot better than the last 2.  this one is less obtrusive and i use my sleep mask with this one.  i just got off the phone with my mom.  it was a good phone call.  i feel better.  well, until next time.

Mon,Dec 27,04

i am about to call it a day at 10:30 am. it's time for an Ambien.  woo hoo! even though i am tired, i definitely need the sleep today. i am exhausted but that is a good thing.  i ran errands this morning and had a long uneventful night at work. let's see what tomorrow brings. oh before i forget, i received a call from my brother Theodore. he was in Iraq. that's reason that i haven't heard from him. i am going to try and meet up with him. also, i hope to hear something from Phil about his parents renting out that apartment. i hope it's good news.

Sun,Dec 26,04

i am actually feeling good today. i have stopped taking my medicines and i am feeling much better for it. i am feeling more euphoric. i think the medicine is what had me done to begin with. i am taking a new lease on life. (how cliche') i just want to feel better about life and take things as they come. i am working on that. we will see where 2005 takes me. i hope to a good place.